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A Call For Voices *This is a call for voices. If you are a loved one of someone currently using methadone, or a loved one of someone who has passed away because of methadone use I would love to hear from you. I am a documentary filmmaker working one a film that will expose the realities of methadone and the effects it has on our society. I am asking for stories to share that will help reform regulation of this drug, and also take away the social stigma of what it is to be on methadone. * * * *My commitment to this film comes from a very real place in my life and the life of my family. My father has been on methadone for over 35 years. My brother for five. My family battles regularly with the health issues methadone creates for both my father and brother, as well as the social stigma's that come along with someone on this medication. * * * *I am driven to explore all angles of the methadone culture. I want to hear from the loved ones who have lost someone to methadone deaths, the loved ones who are losing someone to methadone life, I want to hear from the methadone users, and I want all the same from the other side. I plan to reach out and explore what the people at the clinics believe, I want to hear from the pharmaceutical companies and the government run committees that "regulate" this drug. * * * *Please help me bring a strong voice out to the world that tells the full story of methadone. You can contact me directly by emailing voiceweneed@gmail.com. Tell me about yourself, what drew you to reach out and where you are from. I look forward to hearing from you.* * * *All the best!* * * *Angelica*

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PostSubject: cant come off the opiates   Wed Jun 26, 2013 9:50 am

i went back to the doctor and said- ive given it my best shot- 110% percent- ive burned up- ive gone thorugh weeks and weeks of detoxing.......i need a script of opiates- just to keep me on the mininum level- until thihngs improve in my life and i get some more support.

so he pescribed me 2 DF118s a day- which are pain killers.....2zopilcones a night as i wont sleep from just two DF's and he also gave me a psychiatric referral- after years of a bi-polar cycle and survival from child abuse.

so i guess i need to cling on through the days on the minimnum opiate level and not lose the detox ive already done

but this is the crunch- which is why ive come on here to post- i didnt come on hnere to post by self absorbanices...ive come on for a major rant

ADDICTION TREATMENT IN THIS COUNTRY SUCKS.....AND WHY DO ALL ADDICTS PUT UP WITH IT?????????

it drives me nuts

the doctor said- if you wanted a detox treatment and rehab and therapy....you would have to go back to CADAS......

i said i would rather burn in hell; fire....as all they would do is put me BACK onto methadone....they would help me finish the detox ive already done.

how is one to detox ontbheir own in a rural area- when they have bi-polar, full blown psychic abilities (and dont get carried away with this- this is a TOTAL poisoned chalice- until youve question ed your own sanity and seriously wondered if you are scitzophrenic you would not know what pits a psychic or medium goes down until only blind faith keeps them together again)- a teenage son with tourettes- debts- no friends (despite the NA women spouting peace- love and blessings honey!!! keep the faith- ((yeah ill keep the faith- as next time i see you guys- you better watch out- im going to tell them of the weeks ive fallen into the pits of detox and self loathing and NO ONE has thrown a few lousy words my way)

and what else i can throw in the mix.....

but im the mad one rright?????

there are so many incurable addicts in this country....and yet we are the mad ones right?????? just taper off the methadone and what they dont do is help you to detox off it and to help clear the debris away from the detritus left behind


oh and another rant........I maybe bi-polar....I may be psychic and lose awareness of where i am on my own time line but at least im fricking well reliable!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


consistent and reliable

so why the frick am I in the pits of self loathing?
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PostSubject: Re: cant come off the opiates   Wed Jun 26, 2013 5:17 pm

suffering .......no one should be going through this on their own- without something to do in the day time....have gone through weeks and weeks and weeks of boredom. im shot away with it i really am.
im never going to forget this experience- how ive had to fight tooth and nail for it- clawing through each hour on my own- and self obsessing, fixating, ranting.....

have contacted the local press, i will be the second person in NA to have gone to the press about methadone and the addiction treatment in this county.

hopefully if i get to spread the message it will lighten my load- detox from long term methadone use is like nothing on this earth...its long and lingering and without anything to grab onto you just go totally nuts.
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PostSubject: Re: cant come off the opiates   Fri Jun 28, 2013 2:32 pm

Rosie, I had wriiten a post on here my finger slipped and poof it is gone... I will be back, ASAP.
Love, Bren XXOO:heart: 
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PostSubject: Re: cant come off the opiates   Fri Jun 28, 2013 3:48 pm

y keyboard is broken so i understand. soe letters dont work- how rypti. LOL
lol........sense of huour is a UST.....praount. need to go as nothing is oing out right!!
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PostSubject: Re: cant come off the opiates   Fri Jun 28, 2013 11:23 pm

Rosie, Looks as though it is not meant for us to communicate today, lol. Think you can get a new keyboard soon ? Love, Bren
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PostSubject: Re: cant come off the opiates   Fri Jun 28, 2013 11:30 pm

Too bad she isn't closer I'd take her and buy her a new keyboard!
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PostSubject: Re: cant come off the opiates   Sat Jun 29, 2013 5:59 pm

stgill ant type...oh dear.....hae aepted that i wont be able to do a full deto (rehabilation- physial) whilst liing with y son- pressure too great. i taking pain killers.....BUT at least i off the ethadone....WHAT DO THEY PUT IN THAT STUFF???????????/it has sent e bonkers oer the years......i take other painkillers and dont get anywhere near the euphori- altering effets.

Its y iew it shouldnt be used ENTIRELY_

oh dear......huge apologies for broken key board
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PostSubject: Re: cant come off the opiates   Sat Jun 29, 2013 6:00 pm

LORI.....LOL. it an go bak to the shop AGAIN.......(suh is y life)
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PostSubject: Re: cant come off the opiates   Mon Jul 01, 2013 1:13 pm

Rosie, Get that keyboard fixed, ASAP, LOL. Love, Bren
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PostSubject: Re: cant come off the opiates   Mon Jul 01, 2013 3:03 pm

seems to be working better.
im still taking two DF118 (30mg) a day- i am feeling absolutely miserable. i would just like to be able to do more and to be feeling a bit better.
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PostSubject: Re: cant come off the opiates   Tue Jul 02, 2013 12:49 pm

Rosie, I just lost another long post to you...GRRRR !?!? I'll write again later, OK. Love, Bren XXOO
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PostSubject: Re: cant come off the opiates   Tue Jul 02, 2013 4:15 pm

Hey Rosie, Are you drinking water, water and more water to help flush out your system  ? You need to drink Gatorade its full of Potassium or another sports drink high in it, bananas are high Potassium, too. This will help balance your electrolytes. Keeping you hydrated. No red meat for a month, too hard on digestive system. Eat lots of fresh veggies, fruit, chicken, fish, soups, etc. Next Rosie you have got to do some type of EXERCISE... short walks, any kind of cardio would be great. Exercising will get your ENDORPHINS firing again ENORPHINS (any of a group of peptides occurring in the brain and other tissues of vertebrates, and resembling opiates, that react with the brain's opiate receptors to raise the pain threshold) Get to moving your body... crank up your music and dance NO sad sappy belly rubbing depressing music, lol.  Come on Rosie you can do this !!! Are you sleeping at night from the med the Dr. gave you ? Soak in hot baths as often for needed for pain and relaxation. Methadones long half life is most likely causing you to feel miserable, too. Write back soon to update us. Love, Bren
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PostSubject: Re: cant come off the opiates   Sat Jul 06, 2013 1:46 pm

yes have been doing all of this for weeks now. its ok at first- and then you start to wonder when is it going to come to and end? i guess i should have gone without everything and suffered before i could get better. this detox is a demon.
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PostSubject: Re: cant come off the opiates   Sat Jul 06, 2013 2:49 pm

 Hey Rosie, So sorry you're struggling this long. Yes I've known of others that have been just like you like I've said before... everyone is an individual when coming off Methadone. However, if you hang in there all of this will pass eventually. Hang in there Babe...what do you have to lose ? I know you're under a lot of stress... try not to confuse with withdrawal symptoms. You do not want to be on Methadone for life. Positive attitude...positive thoughts. Rosie, think about it, Sweet Girl, You are off of Methadone !!! One day at a time that's all anyone has. Are you dancing any ? Love, Bren XXOO
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PostSubject: Re: cant come off the opiates   Sat Jul 06, 2013 7:19 pm

its been weeks now since the methadone- after 17 years of daily use it has been a massive achievement. however- now i am on other opiates- i switch and hop from different types. so i have a final step to go- another detox. when i get a car i will do more Na meetings, i can start the voluntary work again...i have a date lined up for next weekend- but hes been told its a friendship only. so when my life stops to be so isolating i will be able to do the final detox. i honestly believe that a full detox is not possible in my situation, no one could do it. i harbour massive resentments towards family that havent helped and have actually been quite toxic (my Dad) my old friends who have treated me like sonme loser and if loneliness is a disease you can catch....
I am following my late mums footsteps and thats taking a hard line....to give back the treatment you receive and to stop being a relentless people pleaser. My mum didnt include my sister in her will- my sister still scratches her head and wonders why sometimes....I have to point out to her time and time again that this is an indication of how hurt she was and how lonely she was in the latter years of her life...how my sister wasnt there for her. It may seem harsh but I am following the same....i am not forgetting my time of need and how numerous people gave me the brush off.
Im sure many of you reading this can relate...how that grief tore you apart etc and how some people put their fear...or their own goals before christian and kind thinking.
never have I been in such a lonely slump as I have been in these last few weeks. Now I am off the methadone and waking up from the methadonia denial and madness I am accepting how Ive put my own self esteem in other peoples hands and have let the toy and play with it.
My old best friend for example...is on facebook and i couldn help but ask her advice on how to treat a bad back (she is an osteopath) and i went and told her how ive been coming off the methadone (she has done heroin in the past etc) and i got the same blank that i do from many people. people think "why hasnt this woman got a life" and ignore me......they have no idea how much this taps into my own self of worthlessness etc. not only do you kick yourself for not having a full and active life- hate yourself for being lonely- but people treat you like you are cursed too.
what do i do about it? is it just me who has had these feelings? I feel a massive need to reclaim some self respect and i dont know why i reached out to someone who i knew was bad at friendship many times in the past.......

im sorry to be self obessed....when you and others here and without their loved ones. but the relentless disatisfaction and loneliness.....it just goes on and on.
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PostSubject: Re: cant come off the opiates   Mon Jul 08, 2013 8:15 am

Rosie, I just lost another reply to you...I am so sorry. XXOO:(
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